Without the bearing of my soul so far this week, I feel like I haven't really blogged! Have no fear, today I shall shear (share. but shear rhymed! It's okay. I can handle your eyes rolling!)
Bluntly, I have an intense fear of failure.
If I think I won't do well at something, I'd rather not spend the energy trying. What's the point in failing? (Am I alone here?) But this little (ahem) problem, well, it doesn't fit with my 2011 spirit of baby stepping to better daily living! There's been resident in me a nagging little desire to try something that very well could end in failure! But something in me has to try!
I've been thinking about this for a while now. I've talked myself out of it lots of times. Been the "voice of reason" in squabbles with myself. I've very nearly given up trying before I have even tried! (exhausting I tell you!)
Why should you care? (so glad you asked!)
First, maybe you "feel me" on this and now your day is better because you no longer feel alone!!! Let's have a pep rally (enter high energy, motivational speaker type voice): Yeah! I declare it's time we both decide to kick Fear of Failure in the pants by just trying. No, the state of the world isn't dependant on our trying, but the state of our living is! Failure isn't really failure...it's a journey, a learning experience, an opportunity to make a better You! Let's embrace each day we have. Let's live like we were dying! (Tim McGraw would be so proud!) Woot-Woot! Okay...time to exit pep rally (aren't you glad! I am!)
Second reason for sharing: Because I am going to try...right here IN FRONT of you (with great trepidation, mind you!). Sharing in this space is my first step in conquering my fear!
Okay, before your eyes completely glaze over in boredom at this turning-very-lengthy post, I will get on with it! I'm not sure when I discovered it, but snapping pictures has become a refreshing outlet for me. When I look back on the images, I sometimes feel encouraged by what the camera captured. There's a truth in there...a message I didn't see before my eye looked through the camera lense. I'm nowhere near an amazing photographer, but there's an amazing peace that falls on me when I grab my camera! Do you have an outlet like that?
Combining this love of picture-taking with my heart to have purpose in what I do (and the need for a few extra pennies!), I am starting a little online shop called C. Hope Captured! (Gasp...it's out!)
The Shop has just a few of my pictures turned into prints, posters, and a card set. I'm starting small...hey at least I'm starting, right?!
Pep rally aside:), I have decided that I will enjoy this little journey. I invite you along because I'm sure there's a lesson or two along the way that maybe you can tuck away for your day of overcoming whatever it is that needs overcome! Maybe the point in failing is for growth, which becomes our growth when shared! Maybe we can laugh together about the blunders that are sure to come. Maybe we can see hope together by simply sharing whatever it is that God brings our way! Life is meant to be shared after all!