FIRST OFF: I know I mentioned here about hosting more on the Handmade HOLIdays things. Lisarae Designs offered us some fabulous shopping and a giveaway, but the others I'd hoped to introduce you to fell through. Therefore, I can officially be marked as a sorry excuse of a girl who can't keep her word and who possesses an inability(?) to spice things up! I feel badly about this! Truly I do. If you've yet to discover the etsy world...visit the beauty now. Buy handmade!!! It will bless the makers and you!
OKAY. On to the rest of this post!
I had a revelation the other night. One that got my man thinking that I just had a need to talk, but really I had a need to share my discovery. (He's patient, did I mention?) I had kissed my littles to sleep, sat myself across from him in the family room (interrupting His quiet...did I mention he's patient?), and declared that I'm just not happy lately. I sat silent after saying this, maybe hoping for some sort of response, maybe waiting for him to tell me how it's not true...I'm not really sure what. But as he was obviously waiting for me to continue, I obliged him explaining that it was because my expectations haven't been getting met. This is when he barred himself for an attack or something (of which never happened by the way). It wasn't him I was referring to (I saw him sigh in relief!!) No. It was all the things I have listed out in my head that must be accomplished in order for me to find some sense of accomplishment, value, whatever. Nothing I want to get done seems to get done.
After a closer look, I easily saw my expectations were a bit unrealistic. And it's simply crazy of me to be throwing away perfectly good days being grumpy with my family and those around me when I'd (we'd) much rather be laughing and feeling light-hearted. Isn't there enough in life that weighs us down? Our homes, our family's ought to be the place we find happy.
After getting all this out with my man (who patiently nodded along!), I got up feeling a bit better about my whole problem. Not holding a real solution in my hand, but rather a shifting in my heart, a change in the direction of my living. Though I know we'll have another chat like this at some point in the road, today I choose to reprioritize. I choose to let go. I choose to laugh.
Would you like to join me?
Chris Hogan who said: I love mosaics and love the countdown...Sean always likes to countdown the days. :) I'm looking forward to checking out all of the other great items on etsy!